Distracted.

Body in one place

Mind in another

Hard to concentrate

With all these memories and thoughts running wild in my mind

How do I control them,

Im not sure.

I sit and think

Think about what I should be doing

But all I can come up with is

That which I shouldn’t be doing.

Im just a small girl

In a big world

Trying to keep pace

With the rest of the world

But it moves so fast.

Im caught in a trance

Trying to find my way

Trying to stay out of trouble

But trouble finds me somehow.

It follows me

Like my shadow.

Like a stalker

I cannot rid myself of.

Questions lead to confusion

I can’t free myself of this nauseating feeling

A mixed feeling of drowning, falling, hopelessness, fear, and stress.

Tranquility

Is what I need.   

                                                                                                                                    

To get away from all the scornful eyes

Away from every person’s judgement

Away from myself

To a place far away.

A place so quiet

That I can listen to myself breathe

I want to hear my thoughts unmasked and naked

Free of oppression

Free from the fear of being judged

I need a sense of stillness

A place so still

That I can see my breathe condense in front of me

I need to recollect myself

Before stepping out into this labyrinth called life

I need to find myself once more.